What's Been Happening

Gosh, it's been some time since I posted eh? Well, there's been some legal wrangling happening and it's just not going anywhere, so I've been entangled in that instead of posting clever things here. I see on my daily George Carlin calendar today something particularly poignant to the issues I'm dealing with lately: "Until you're a certain age, you don't have anything to 'put behind you.' That's what life seems to be: a process of doing things that eventually you just want to put behind you."

As much as I regret my recent divorce (not the loss of the guy so much, but the sadness it leaves like a pond wake for my family), I regret every day not having used a lawyer to do the divorce. This leaves me with financial issues that I am struggling with, including real estate, family law, mortgage companies, etc. So I am trying to get out of this with as little financial and emotional damage as possible...in a short period of time. NOTE TO SELF: Don't try to do anything legal in a quick amount of time, it doesn't work.

Amidst all the craziness and drama, though, small victories emerge. My dog is a lot more well-behaved now than he used to be, to the point that at some locations I can actually keep him off leash. I had a call from a publishing company that wants to interview me for a part-time job ... and I have a referral to a new lawyer who hopefully can get me everything I deserve and want out of this nightmare house situation. Work is going well, I am finding my strengths there finally, and feeling not so alone in the pace at which I am learning the things I need to know.

But the biggest blessing I have right now is Scott. He is a handsome and wonderful person I hope to have in my life a long time. He is an anchor, a funny-man when I truly need a joke, my support system when it's late at night and I am feeling the weight of the world, a supreme listener, a logical voice when I am not capable of that, an awesome hugger/cuddler, he teaches me things every day about nothing and everything, relates to me and my past as well as my present, is responsible when necessary and a lot of fun when it's not, is forgiving, appreciative, clever, intelligent, organized, considerate, generous, and makes me feel like I only need to be ME. Which is the best part.

So I guess putting things behind you, as difficult as it is, still paves the way for lots of new experiences and validates the good choices you have made.